anarchistrehab

Holy crap, I haven't been on in, well, months . . . um. I think I might try to get on more. I've missed this place.

Psyched to see that my Wrong Answers to Obvious Questions game is still in the top, even after all this time. I RULE THE WORLD! jk. haha. 

xox

anarchistrehab

I'm back!!

God I haven't been on in forever. I think I've kind of missed it here. Okay, so I did. LOL.

Life's a little better.

A little calmer since I finally graduated, hallelujah!

LOL.

New favorite song: "Good" by Dakona.

I loved it back in 2003 but I just got it last night. Haha. The memory crushed my mind and so I Limewired the song.

It's played about 200 times so far. Haha.

Comment anytime.

Cheerio.

Shoot's over. Finally did it. Hallelujah! It went perfectly. Surprisingly enough, the cynicism and doubting that the thing would work even partially right came from my mother. She worried that they wouldn't like any of my clothes and wouldn't know what to do with me. Sheesh. Well I can't help that, especially that last part. I'm not like anybody you'll ever meet . . . you can't typecast me. Hahaha.

But anyway . . . the shoot went fantastically well and I can't wait to see my photos. Egahhhhh XD

Peace

<a href="http://thebookoftorka.blogspot.com/"> The Book Of Torka</a>

So . . . one of my really good friends just got her heart broken by this total asshole . . . I mean, he started going with her when he still had feelings and a million half-naked photos of this other girl, and he doesn't care that my friend knows and is totally torn up . . . and the whole relationship was HIS doing in the effing first place!! GAHHH. I am so mad for her. If I went to her school I would definitely beat the crap out of him.

So . . . my evil Torkishly and I are trying to come up with evil revenge plans for her to execute. I know she won't do it though, no matter how doable our plan is. Gahh. Well, I guess everyone deals with pain differently. And life in general. Oh well. At least she knows I care, and that's a good thing.

Zen to you.

The effing photo shoot got canceled AGAIN. THIS IS THE THIRD TIME!!!!!!!!! My patience has run out!

I think I'm going to go hang myself by my hair. Oh wait . . . I forgot . . . I don't have long hair anymore. Damn.

I wish you'd forget me

So I don't remember you

I wish you'd ignore me

So I'd forget the stupid things I do

I wish you would leave me

So I'd know I'd live on after you

And I just want to know I've tried

Instead of keeping on living a lie

And I just want to know I'm right this time

Yes, I wrote that . . . I don't know how I came up with that . . . or what it means . . . but I was singing it randomly tonight and I realized that it's ridiculously how I feel . . . in an absurd, illogical way . . . because it connects to my life right now somehow. The question is, HOW?

I've been method acting lately . . . I do that when I write stories or come up with ideas for things, because it helps me get in the character's head and world . . . and (hopefully) it makes me write better . . . at least I never run out of ideas doing that.

OH and my band broke up. Well, actually, it was all my doing, but HEY. WE WEREN'T DOING A BLASTED THING ANYWAY! Everything that we ever did was MY doing, so why not the disbanding as well? I'm still so happy for Autumn . . . I can't believe her band got SIGNED!! GAHHH I couldn't be happier if it were my own band . . . and Autumn's not even my best friend or anything like that . . . but what the heck. But anyway . . . I have my photo shoot on the 8th, and my college interview the day after . . . and I AM SO EFFING NERVOUS, because it's only like 3 months until school is out (3 months and 13 days, to be exact) and I'm kind of behind . . . NOT BY MUCH. REALLY! But it SUCKS because I was a month ahead until my mom went berserk and cleared out like 2 terms! NOT FAIR. Oh yeah, and Ms. S had to go and block my algebra lessons for like a month, more or less. Mmhmm.

Moira just came in my head, haha . . . we're somehow very tight, and we don't even like each other all that much . . . and then somebody dissed FOB and MCR for being "dark" and "depressing" and "shallow" . . . OOOGHHHH I told them off SO BAD. And then somebody called Sinai Beach "shit" and "the devil" . . . so I told him off too.

But I'm going to end this long, rambling blog about nothing now.

Until both our cars collide. @>>---